Bonds

Today they want us to write and anonymous letter to someone we are jealous of.

To be quite honest, I am not really jealous of anyone at the moment. I have had times in my life were I was and have been jealous, but I seem to have outgrown the feeling. It takes up too much time and energy. It is in fact a much nicer to be happy for the person rather than being jealous.

I must say though that I do have moments “wishing.” You know, when you see something and you wish yours was the same without having any resentment for the person who has that. I think that is really the crux of the matter – not having any type of envious feeling for that person, but rather noticing the quality of what that person has, wishing them well and not having a feeling of resentment about it.

I get that feeling for really silly things, like when I see parents being really close, kind and respectful to their grown up children and grandchildren, and the children have the same with their parents. I love seeing this, and I am not shy to say that I watch them and appreciate that they have that. I just love seeing closeness and warmth between the fathers, mothers, sons and daughters and I do sometimes wish that things with my parents, or just one of them at least could have been different, but it can’t because the rivers run too deep and the turbulence is far too destructive.

*hugs*