What are the nighttime rituals that keep you up before finally dozing off?
I am terrible at night. My OCD does not help much either. The general routine for me, when I’m not anxious, is to watch a bit of TV, slop face creams, neck creams and eye gels (you name it, I have it,) then maybe a bit of TV, definitely some reading.
This is how it goes on anxious days. Which is more often than non anxious days. Once everyone is in bed, I will go and check that the doors are locked. Everything gets checked and re checked. Now that it’s winter, I also go around to each room and check to see if the heaters are off and if the occupant of that room wants to sleep with the heater on, well then I have to check that it is in a safe position and that there is nothing too close to the heater.
If my eldest daughter is out I generally can’t sleep until she has come home, and sometimes this is only at around 1 am. I leave the TV on with the security cameras on so that I can see when she gets back. Sometimes I will doze off, but usually I hear the gate opening, then I watch to be sure her and her friends are in safe and that the gate is closed again. She will not be impressed to know that I check on her like this.
The worst thing though is the nightmares. I have been having so many of them lately that I actually try to stay awake as long as I possibly can. The latest nightmares have been really awful. It usually helps if I blog the dream or tell it to someone, but these are so awful I can’t even retell them.