Indifference

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I haven’t felt this hurt and broken in a very long while.  Words said have been chewing through my soul.  I am not feeling sorry for myself, and I don’t want you to think that, rather, I am taken aback by the attitudes of indifference of those I thought have a little time for me.  I am basically a friendless person outside of here.  I just don’t blend well, and I suppose it is my fault because everyone else can’t be wrong, not so?
This quotation is so true…
“Indifference and neglect often do much more damage than outright dislike.”
J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.
 
Personally, I think I can handle dislike so much better than indifference.

 

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63 thoughts on “Indifference

  1. I’m not a very social person and I’m sure most people also view me with indifference. However, I’m also quite “closed” through body language and so on – it’s possible that they don’t view me with indifference but I close them out most of the time so they don’t say anything.
    Appearances can be deceiving. Maybe you have more people who care than you think?
    Virtual hugs to you.

  2. It is difficult to deal with indifference as here is no emotion at all. And, as you say, the worst indifference of all is that which comes from people who once loved or cared for you.

  3. I think I can understand where you are at after battling severe depressive disorder many years ago. Or maybe I’m off course but either way I hope today will bring a big dose of joy your way Michelle. And there are many here that sincerely care about you. 🙂

  4. Did you ever read the Anne of Green Gables books? They are for children, but I keep remembering her hunt for related souls, through the years it has comforted me when I have not found friends in some of the places we have lived or some of the schools I have gone to.Even when I have lots of people to spend some time with. A related soul is a rare gift, when you find one it does not matter if it is on the web or at your doorstep. AS for indifference, you matter a lot to us who are reading your blog. Love, Solveig

  5. When I worked I ran into what you are describing… I wasn’t particularly a confidant outgoing person and so often was just ‘ignored’. I’m a person and always have been that needs to have that connection…needs to know the person truly accepts me for who I am and then a relationship can develop. When I look back I think I was just considered too serious…too deep in my thinking because most talked of superficial things soi much. They weren’t wrong and I wasn’t either, it was just the way it was. But I did feel isolated. I remember one time being paired up with another as we worked in ‘twos’ but she decided within a short time that she would ask to change to work with someone who she had more in common with. She will never know how much that hurt…. I had different times similar to that … It’s not that people were outright mean to me (well once there was ) but just like you said ‘indifferent’…. I hope you can know within your very soul Michelle that it is not ‘you’ ….there is nothing wrong with you… It is that the other person has some need that they need to search and try to find it ….. (not saying exactly what I want..but hope you get the gist)…. Diane

  6. Michelle. Your post made me cry. Just know that you do matter to all of us who read your blog. I can empathize with your feelings, though, because I have always felt like a square peg in a round hole person, not that you do, but that’s how I would describe myself. Fortunately, I found a man who feels the same way about himself. So my husband and I go together perfectly, and he is my best friend. But I have only found one kindred spirit in a woman, and that was my mom. She has been gone for over seven years now, and I have yet to find a woman I can have that kind of friendship with again. I hope you are feeling better. Just be true to yourself; you don’t have to be who others want you to be to be accepted. I’ve come to the place where if people can’t accept me and love me for who I am, I don’t need them in my life! 🙂 Also, please know that your passion for photography has inspired me to get out there again. Today I am going to post some pictures of a chapel that I took and I was trying to zoom in on the doorways at different angles thinking of your photos. Go to my blog and check it out. I’m going there now to post them for you! Hugs to you!! 🙂

  7. To treat anyone as if he or she is invisible is a true tragedy. Dislike may be a close second but at least you know your exist on some level.

    Sorry to hear of this mistreatment. Ignore it if you can. You know who you are and what is your worth. 😉

  8. You are not alone in this feeling Michelle. I think every soul on earth feels this way and rather than say it or even acknowledge the feeling everyone just moves like robots through life … Even though you feel this way, which is perfectly human BTW, I’m glad you know it, it means you are awake when you can identify indifference. Hugs to you beautiful spirit. Sheri

  9. Michelle, it’s not so much that the world is indifferent as it is that society has taught everyone to be self-absorbed. They can’t stumble out of the mire of their own problems to see anyone else’s. However, even not knowing your situation, I can assure you that what you’re feeling many of us feel. I go from thinking I have no friends to realizing I have many; it’s just most are crappy at it.

    Not all of us are crappy, though. And if you reach out, I will reach back. Even if you’re temporarily an unhappy hugger.

  10. Let me begin with a big ((HUG)) Hope, I understand exactly what you mean by indifference being more hurtful than dislike. I recently experienced this in response to something that was important to me, not to mention just a lack of basic good manners and it has seriously affected the way I view the people concerned now. Just made me realise once more that I prefer the raw honesty of my dog’s company to that of many people.

  11. I’m guilty of this when someone hurts me, rather than strike back I usually just ignore them completely. I feel like they notice it more, than me just getting angry and making a scene, because I usually laugh and greet and smile at everyone… I’m sorry people are treating you like this, you are such a kind sweet person, I can’t imagine why they would. but then, maybe they have something awful going on in their life so much so they’ve withdrawn…so maybe bake some cookies and go kill them with kindness…show them your love for them, even if they’re a jerk, and it will make you feel good inside regardless of how they are. and remember … we all love ya…we are real…not just computer faces!!! 🙂

Namaste. My soul honors your soul. I honor the place in you where the entire universe resides. I honor the light, love, truth, beauty & peace within you, because it is also within me. In sharing these things we are united, we are the same, we are one.

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