Tell us about the blog post you were most nervous to publish — and what it was like to set it free.
In all honesty I am often nervous when I post my “on the couch” posts. I do those when I am a bit of a mess emotionally/mentally; whatever people want to call it. Usually, before I write posts such as these I will first try to talk to those I know, in a light-hearted way, just to get whatever my “black dog” thoughts are out of the my mind. It is just to feel the warmth and understanding of another human, but I’ll tell you something else – I really am a poor judge of character. People are not always receptive and I don’t blame them as they have their own burdens, and don’t want to be listening to anymore than they need to.
Also, I often find that I seem to be facing people whom I could quite comfortably compare to brick walls. Why? Well because they are just that. Trying to make conversation, or talking to some people, or even just emailing them is just like standing five centimeters away from a deaf brick wall…I don’t know, maybe I am just too much – so now, my resolve is just to stop. I am no longer trying to befriend, be friendly, not sending mails. I am just stopping.
This is when I do the “on the couch posts.” I do get nervous. I have noticed that at times I lose readers because of those posts, but that just proves the way of humanity in some cases, and yet that does not bother me as much as the baring of my soul, that is what bothers me, but still, I do it…