Forgive me for this low post. Sometimes it helps to write, as if I have a best friend who is listening…not necessarily saying anything, but just listening.
I felt as though I have been doing so well, depression wise that is, but this past week that dark little shadow has tapped me on my shoulder a few times, just to remind me that it is here I think. I try to joke around and be merry, but that does not help at all. Each time I get that little tap, which comes in the form of waves, a few little flash backs for no reason and some morbid thoughts. I’ve pushed these feelings away all the time, thinking I have got it covered and am handling it well, but today suddenly that dark cloud swiped at me with a vengeance…and now my energy has drained, I want to sit and cry a river – for no particular reason really, and the tiredness – I cannot explain the tiredness. Maybe tomorrow it will be all better again…
Thank you for listening.