Rather give me “White Kitten”


Usually I find solace in writing here on my blog, but not this time.  I feel so angry with myself fo feeling this way when I have so much to be grateful for and there are people out there who are suffering more than I would ever know.  It’s no use trying to explain the feeling of darkness and exhaustion.  What is even more exhausting is trying so hard, but then the shadows still manage to creep up on me… There used to be someone I could chat to but then backs are turned and I don’t blame them.  So now, if I could nurse this headache away which always accompanies my black dog, then things might start feeling brighter and better.

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64 thoughts on “Rather give me “White Kitten”

  1. Find a worthy friend who will not turn their back… we all need those sounding blocks for life’s inequities… or hell put it in words here you’ll find the support… I heard a good one today ..”I need a day between Saturday and Sunday just to sort out the brain.”

  2. I support you from way over here in Maine. I think you do such great things and make such a positive impact on the lives of others, It seems you need a pick me up. I wish I had a magic word or wish to make you feel better. I am sending you positive thoughts and appreciate all that you do. I am grateful for you Michelle and your participation in the world of blogging. You probably don’t know the gentle, calm, loving presence you give to others. I see it every day, and am very appreciative.

  3. There is nothing better in the whole world than the unconditional love of a pet. I say snuggle your woes away and bury your face in his warm neck until you find your voice again. Sending you a happy hug from me too.

  4. I know there are a lot of people worrying about you (even those anonymous bloggers like me out here in cyberspace). “This too shall pass” – and the creeping shadows will dissipate. We miss your joyful spirit and I for one, am sending you happy *hugs* to speed things along.

  5. Hope you are feeling better as this day moves along.
    We had a white kitten, but now she is a 12 year old white cat and weighs approx. 117lbs. so too heavy to ship over to you. 🙂

  6. First, use my email listed ( bookman232@yahoo.com ) and chat and vent.
    Don’t get upset with yourself because you feel down or whatever. It does no good to say “others have it so much worse” because that will always be the case in almost everything.
    You are special; you are loved; you are unique,

  7. Maybe we should work out a programme of dog training for him – the first thing could be to roll over and play dead? 🙂
    Don’t worry about comparing with people having massive problems; it is how it affects one that counts. I think some people who lose everything in a disaster, for example, find it so overwhelming that the actual impact is less than for another person whose friend cuts them dead. It is all relative.

    • Well, yes I agree…hence my comparison in the post, but I am not depressed because of the friend at all, I just happened to mention the friend because I often think of the friend. The disobedient black dog has a chemical unbalance.

  8. There may be people in the world with greater problems than you, but it doesn’t make your situation any less deserving of expecting understanding. You have my thoughts and wishes for a better day, so keep your chin up. 😉

  9. Just because others have what seem to be more serious problems, you don’t have to feel that what plagues you is insignificant. Everyone has problems, and you are entitled to be troubled by them regardless of what suffering others are going through. You can only live your life, not everyone else’s, so what you are feeling is just as valid as anyone else’s feelings. Does cancer suck? Of course. How about losing a friend or family member? It’s awful! So is depression. Experiencing the same chemical reactions and nerve impulses as someone experiencing real pain and loss is just as painful as if they were generated by real life events. Don’t trivialize your suffering because you can’t show paperwork, news articles, or headstones to justify your emotional state.

  10. Just a prediction 4 u “The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you…….I think real peace and happiness is the gift of Holy spirit and it is associated with the presence of holy spirit.

  11. Your problems seem like huge mountains to climb and it is difficult to do, even with help. To fight them by yourself is even more difficult. Don’t sell yourself short though. You have fought off the black dog before and won. Don’t give up now. Your blog friends need your selfless encouragement. Stay Strong

  12. Please don’t compare yourself to others … it’s not fair to yourself, okay? I am sending lots of hugs your way. Hoping your spirits are lifted soon … because we all love you and worry about you. And we miss you when you aren’t here at WP. [Hug!]

  13. Know what, I feel the same way too sometimes. Guilty for rambling on and on about my bad days and so called problems when I know I do still have a lot to be thankful for and there are so many others out there worse of then me… But… I still prefer to just let it out. It’s healthier. Also. If you ever feel like you need a space to release your troubles, feel free to drop me an email. I may not always think of the right things to say. But I can try to listen. 🙂 *sending love, peace and sunshine from Singapore*

  14. It is so hard when those dark moods creep in and you can feel them coming, like watching a storm roll in. Be conscious of your thoughts, know they are not accurate, thank them for being there and tell them you don’t need them, throw a tennis ball for that black dog and run the other way!

  15. Beautiful Soul, there’s no need to tell you things I know that you already know. What I will tell you, however, is that you are not alone. You are in my thoughts and prayers, as well as so many others with whom you have shared yourself so freely. This dark cloud will pass soon because you are feeling your way through it.
    In Love & Light, Sloan

Namaste. My soul honors your soul. I honor the place in you where the entire universe resides. I honor the light, love, truth, beauty & peace within you, because it is also within me. In sharing these things we are united, we are the same, we are one.

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